everyone's having purposely-dyed black hair now.
just like me.
-.-

i just cannot make it on thursdae and fridae.

thurs started at 9am. first lesson is MA I practical. oh man. when i woke up it's like already 8.30. so i decided not to go then. since i'll be late and i'm afraid of the tutor. mr miranda. haha. so went to fa lec after that. thurs is one of those daes that i 'look forward' to. cuz it's all filled up with combined lectures. i can get to see alot of ppl. hees. my beloved sb club peeps. hees. but it's damn tiring and turn off to have four lectures in a dae. and i'm lack of sleep. haha. my eye circles and eye bags are getting worse to worst! HELP!

todae. class started at 8am. guess wat. i woke up at 6.30am and tot that i've got loads of time. bathed, prepared and ate my breakfast slowly. after eating, i realised it's already 7.45am. wth! i rushed to board a train. and alighted at the next station at lakeside. lols. WHY? cuz i know i'm gonan be late and the teacher, mr cornad de souza, if i get his name correctly, said that he'll not markk us present once we are late. so might as well dun go. since jac is not going as well. hahas. khay mar called and she's still at home, wanting to come out, then i told her not to go already. cuz it'll make no diff in our attendance. lols. so we didnt go and i went back to boon lay, took bus and slept again. hahas. woke up and headed to school again.

RWPS, i have to sae sth, i reali admire my lecturer for RWPS, he is kenneth tan. at first, i tot that he'll be quite strict cuz his eng is damn fluent and has this ang moh accent. and i tot he cannot tolerate singlish that i'm quite fluent at. no lec notes for this module. and i practically dozed off at his first two lessons. language is not my piece of cake.

but but but.

he's funny. he shares with us his life experiences and relate himself to us. he actuali shared with us his personal life experiences. reali personal. because i dunno if i shud share this in the www, i think it'll be better that i'll just keep it to myself. and my class. i reali admire him. he is so strong. he is so optimistic. not onli is he strong, his wife, and his son are oso strong. i need to sae that i feel lucky enuff to be here, leading a normal and simple life. it may not be fulfiling, but at least i'm here. as a well living person. khay mar, jac and i actuali cried after listening to his experience, and we had so much to sae afetr that. his class is no longer like a normal lesson onli. it's so inspirational.

if onli every lesson can be like that, i think all students will be contented with wat we have in life. it'll not be so academic based. it'll be much more fulfiling and meaningful.

(:

had first ex co meeting todae. the year ones are great. better than me, i think. hahas. i have to get everything done by next ex co meeting. soemone please help me!

after that, went to jp. bought sports shoes already! hahas. can play sports like free! i wanna be more healthy. after the great experience during the bball dae. even thou it;s so short, and i never reali play. i felt refreshed after that. maybe at least once per week i shall exercise. any form of exercise. badminton? bball? i onliknow this two at the moment. hees. exercise includes shopping? this, i know the best! hahas.

mondae.

was late. and coincidentally, khay mar was oso late. so we went into the lec theatre tgt. if not, it'll be damn embarassing. had the 'feel' to go shopping. so the bunch of us went to bugis after school ends at 3. shopped shopped shopped. spent 40 bucks in less than 15 mins. and got this model agency again. trying to approach us to go for interview. they called me and i turned them down. i'm a 'play safe' person. hees.

tues.

was late again. and i'm worried the whole dae. cuz of the interview later on during the dae. gonna be interviewed by advisors. omg. what would they ask? will they be approved of me? i'm so blur. i'm having serious STM. i'm not that capable. anw, i end at 2+ and the interview was at 4. so i had so much time. if i know, i would crash guoquan's lec with mingjian. haha. i was slacking in library when i saw mark, shyanne, guo hua. and all of them were like trying to cool me down and give me some encouragement. cuz i'm damn scared. lols. 4pm drawn near. and i went to mr c's room. alone. ivan's not there. faints. then mr david tan came in and interview started. onli a few questions. and i'm in?! lols. scary. treasurer indeed. tough tough job. damn. nvm. i believe i can. -.-
gotta know that they (sb club peeps) were playing badminton. went to find them. and i wanted to play so much! but i was in the wrong attire. lols. later i fall. jiu pai sehs. watched bball trial. hees. 7 my fav. number i mean. definitely not the person. LOLS. then went to jp and makan'ed' and arcade'd'. saw simin there. talked, played, walked, shopped. ian is damn zai in playing the drum thingy. lols. i'm zai in playing the bball machine kaes? lols. like real. played till 9+ then go home kaes? everyone's so shagged.

wed.

was late again. my sister, wong mei shan's, lesson. drama happened todae in class. hmm. but nvm. break. i onli had 15 min for me to eat. if you are someone who knows how 'fast' i eat, you shud know how 'enjoyable' the meal is. stupid fc is soo pack. like tuna. so we got ourselves seats outside the photocopy shop again. the stupid chicken rice's queue was damn long. our patience had reached our limits, and we decided to buy from indian store instead. but, we were like so close to the store already. so we sticked with chicken rice. but i managed to finish within 15mins kaes? *claps* plus, i ate khay mar's muffins, she baked it herself. guys, she's fantastic. i fall in love with her after eating her muffins. hees. i have to learn from her somedae. and bake for my future husband. LOLS. think he'll have serious digestion probs after eating. lols.
had rwps and i'm practically sleeping with my eyes open. hahas. and i was waiting for the fire drill to ring asap. finally, it rang. we were like the first class to move out the classroom. cuz a few of us wanted to go to the washroom. lols. we were taking our own sweet time to the sports complex. lols. so lame. there were laminated labels for blocks. like 'block 22 level 4'. these were printed on big pieces of papers and laminated. pasted on the bench and we sat there. waited. and we wondered if reali there is a fire, will they have enuff time to paste those labels on the benches? anw, we acted amart by reading financial times while waiting. dismissed. waste time. lame.
went to fc 5's flea market. nothing there. hees. saw ed and cn before meeting the sb ppl for bball. talked talked talked. haha. saw xs and ed shouted for him. i said hi. hees. so frenly. haha. anw, they were there for watching the soccer trial. cuter guys there. lols. no la. =X
met them. and li fen, melissa and me took a ball ourselves from clubhouse and played ABCDEFGHIJ. i'm so.. lousy. hees. so long never do sports. fat'ted'. old'ed'. ahh. we also played in the rain. so fun. lols.

peishan, peishan. get a life!

first week of schhol just didnt work for me. i no longer haave the kick to study. watever lecturers and tutors said, i dun understand.

everything's getting tougher and i cant adapt to it. maybe it's because it's been a long long while since i last touched my books.

khay mar and i were sitting tgt during one of the many combined lectures with FT students and we realised that watever the lecturer is saying, we dun understand. that's because of one thing, the world has grown, and we hadnt.

this is scary, i cannot imagine myself studying wat i'm studying now. and i cant make any sense out of them. plus, i need to make money out of them for the rest of my life.

how am i going to carry on my life?

so many things happen lately, the good and the bad. i dunno to believe them anot. how i wish i can reali 'dun give a damn' to some things. but it's definitely harder to act than to sae. i cant do it.

anw, i must sae, ytd i went to sb club's guys playing bball. not forgetting melissa and kai yin. i simply just admire them. and the guys were so cool when playing bball. and it was raining. malissa and i realised how weak we are. and i've decided that i need to exercise more often. hees. but wat to do, i still dunno. haha.

khay mar and i realised that we've got no life. cuz last time we used to be so active in everything. and now? so dead. we've gotta inject juice in our lives man. but how? let see then. hees.

i've decided to join sb club. i certainly hope that will inject juice into my life. hees.

khay mar gave me a link and i took the personality test. and this is so real for the both of us.

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

The situation at this time is one of considerable distress. You feel trapped and you are looking for some way out. You can find solace in the arms of someone who cares so long as there is no long-term emotional involvement.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/
this is the link. if interested, can go try out. (:

todae is the first dae of school. my class is dbf/2a/o3. six of us, namely: khay mar, jacqueline, anne, yiling, angela and myself. angela's bf, rong quan as well as his fren, weijun are also in the same class. plus khatijah, we'll have 9 persons that know each other before joining this class. basically, banking option has practically NO GUYS. i shud have chosen the financial trading option. for my own future's sake. LOLS.

first lesson was a e-commerce mgt lecture by this angmoh, mark johnson. luckily i still managed to understand him even thou i know my eng sucks. i fell asleep during the lecture already. hees. right after that was his tut at com lab. we have new coms in sb! hees. but the CPUs were too tall. i barely see the words in the slides shown. lols. i have to tip toe abit. hahas. i guess i have to sit in front next time. lols. by this time, we realised that ourr classmates are quite dao. for some girls. and the others, were the ones who were involved in FOP facs. so i'm okies with them hees. such a coincidence. benneth and nicholas are TWO OUT OF THREE GUYS in our class. they were so good. at this moment for benneth. cuz we were supposed to have grps of 4 - 6. and the six of us are tgt. mark johnson wanna break us up. but they sacrifice themselves to accomodate us. hees.

we were released at 11 when it's supposed to be 12pm. so we have this two hours break. went to cca drive, walked around. practically, one round, and realised nothing interests me. hmm. after went to fc 4 to eat. sux. i realised i have no appetite for any food in sp. ahhhh!

went to have this Banking and Financial Institutions tut. wants us to have grps of five. we have got no choice. we splited ourselves into three-three. andd recruited another two. guessed who are the two. benneth and nicholas. and you think benneth was good. hahas. he begins to sae jac looks like phlipino and i look like malaysian. and we begin to sae he looks like chyna guy. lols. =X i think we were quite noisy. but that's better. cuz it'll be more lively. since jonathan and terence are no longer with us. hees.

everyone who didnnt see me with black hair beofre, cant recognise me. lols. especially yiling. mistaken me as angela. if onli i can be as demure as her. lols.

hope everything goes smoothly. (:

alright. for those who happen to see the post just now, you all are so unfortunate to see the other side of me.

kkaes. i think i'm alright now. and that's y i deleted the post so that i wun be reminded. dun ask me wat happened. cuz i wun sae. i dunno. but i like to bottle up my feelings. or maybe i think the things that i got up with were just minor and believed that i can handle, when most of the times, i cant. but it all do not matter now.

tml will be the first dae of my second year in poly. i'm lucky enuff to have my classmates in year one to be in the same class as me. but i wonder how will the rest of the class be? fun? loving? noisy? quiet? bitchy? mind-your-own-problems? hmm. it'll be for me to find out tml. in less than 12 hours from now.

my timetable is so not good. no more one lesson in a dae.

mondae: 9am to 3pm
[e commerce mgt, banking and finance institutions]
[BREAK 12pm to 1pm]

tuesdae: 11am to 3pm
[financial accounting, macroeconomics]
[BREAK 1pm to 2pm]

wednesdae: 10am to 3pm
[customer relationship mgt, report writing and presentation skills]
[BREAK 12pm to 1pm]

thursdae: 9am to 4pm
[macroeconomics, financial accounting, understanding cross cultural diversity, customer relationship mgt, banking and finance instituions]
[BREAK 12pm to 1pm]

fridae: 8am to 4pm
[understanding cross cultural diversity, report writing and presentation skills, financial accounting]
[BREAK 10am to 12pm, 1pm to 2pm]

seriously, i think fridae is dumb. earliest and has so manny breaks in between. and thursdae sux. so manny diff modules. this sem has got no gem. next sem taking two gems then. hmmm.

i'm so sians. tml has to go to school already. i haven get to enjoy my holidaes. i want holidaes. i think i'll look forward to the next holidaes when i go to school the first dae tml. hmmm.

tml has the cca drive. i want to have a cca. but nothing seems to interest me since last year when i was a freshman. hmm. or stick with sb club? oso must see if sb club wants me. hees.

hahas. yesterdae was fun. hees.

todae is the outing for everyone that is involved in FOC and FOP. hees. i think it's reali good to see despite our hierachy, everyone hangs out fun together. hees. i reali like this feeling. hees. even we are veri noisy, but i think we are a bunch of great and fantastic people! we came from diff courses. may not know each other beforeFOP/FOC. but after the events, we are like.. so bonded. hees. it's so fun. and so.. miraculous. hees. we went to sentosa. i was laye and the rest were at the sentosa express already. hees. to prevent anything stupidto happen to me, waited for li fen to reach. in the mean time, i went to breadtalk and grab cheesestix to fill my empty stomach. hees. met up with li fen and went to giant to buy thing. guo quan wants coke and mentoes. and we smelt somehting fishy already. so end up, we bought green tea and ricola instead. lols. met qianyi and took monorail to beach station. hees.

reached siloso beachand played beach vollyball with them. hees. i'm no good in beach vollyball lahs. lols. then dark clouds conquered and it started to drizzle. then we moved towards delifrance to shelter ourselves. and the drizzling stops. hahas. so guo quan went to get mentoes and coca cola out from nowhere. and tried that stupid experiment. hees. we took a video of it. and it obviously works. hahas. headed to play beach vollyball again.

suddenly, my contacts dropped off from my eye. luckily i managed to take it on my hand.my dearest li fen brought contact lens solution. and she accompanied me to the toilet while the rest are playing. hahas. went to the toilet. trying my very best to put my contacts back. but i cant. dunno y. then i just threw it awae. hahas. and we went back to the place. but it seems that heaven is reali unhappy on this freaking fridae the 13th. it rains heavily suddenly.! i cant see well. cuz i'm having a bad bad eyesight of negative 3.50! li fen has to bring me back.. and we have to run. hahas. was already wet in the toilet cuz my dearest li fen splashed me water. -.-" my boly was quite oily cuz i was covered with sun tanning oil which is obviously not for use todae. hahas. played in the rain awhile and was reali wet. hees. the tramp came and we took it back to beach station. the tramp was like.. damn wet. and as it moves, the wind.. is damn freaking cold. lols.

changed to dry clothes and headed to vivo. ate at banquet and hanged ard. wanted to watch movie ders. but end up didnt. y? cuz:
felicia, shyanne, qian yi dun wanan watch
malissa wanan watch the other show
glen has to leave earlier
i cant see without my contacts and glasses
raymond got no money
ben has no objections.
so we ended up slacking at gv @ vivo and went home after that. lols. so lame right? hahas. on the wae back, saw khay mar and jac, whn i'm supposed to go highlight hair with my dearest khay mar. lols. she went to watch movie and i'm at vivo slacking. lols. so coincidential! managed to came back home myself from outram. lols. i'm like a half-blindd mouse roaming ard. lols.

tml is girls' dae out. but my 'dearest nic nic' wanna go sentosa. later rain liket odae then you'll know how turn off it is. lols.

yesterdae was the onli dae that all ocs dun have to go to school. so we had this meeting for all coordinators, facs, ocs of fop/foc. there were shyanne, felicia, mardiah, li fen, me, nicholas, ivan, mark, glen, and jeremy. hees. we went to marina square's k box to celebrate. not everyone of us was there. but already very noisy everywhere we go. hahas. and we were saying that we belong to NP. hahas.

we went to k box. from 2 - 7, k student package. i broke one of the cups! ))): arghs! so clumsy! one person is less than 15 bucks. hees. but i haven got my 6 bicks back. never mind. just treat it as my compensation for the broken glass cup. hahas. we were damn high no matter wat song it is. hahas. so funny. teasing each other and we were like going clubbing. hahas. during the song, 'tuo diao' by alex toh. glen and nic kena stripped by the rest of the guys. lols. and they have to go ard half naked to search for their shirts. LOLS. but i must admit, they have real GOOD bodies. hahas.. free shows for the rest of the girls.

after k boxing, we went to eat pizza hut. that nic, the big fllirt started to flirt with the server there. hahas. and he called himself hunk. hees. we ate alot. and ate veri quickly. hahas. after eating we played three rounds of 'zong ji mi ma' and the forfeit was a cup of special mixture by us. the ingredients are: chicken bone, tabasco, tissue papers, ice lemon tea, cheese, sugar syrup, plain water, pepper etc. everything we found on the table. lols. and the three lucky people are : jian hui, mardiah and nic. lols. nic's was the biggest share. lols. i smelt the drink, it's awesomely stinky. hahas. it smells like 'smelly tofu'. like rubbish bin. lols.

after the dinner, we were roaming around. lols. as if marina square's ours. but we claimed that we were from np. so no worries. lols. we were taking photos from marina square all the wae back home. all credits to our personal photographer, nicholas toh. hahas. and we were talking bout scandals on the train. lols. so many scandals after events. lols. damn funny. hahas.

later going out with the ocs to reward ourselves with swensens. lols. we have vouchers. hees.

tml maybe going sentosa with the foc ppl, or maybe going to highlight hair with lyn they all, or going to highlight hair with khay mar. hees. hmmm.

thanks alot ppl! for bringing joy into my life! <3

went to school for FOP facs' training. LOLS. everryone loves each other so much in FOC lahs. we got so many.. 'couples'. hahas. anywaes, i'm quite high todae. due to the station games played. hahas.

came back home and dyed my hair black. real BLACK. hahas. by myself. hahas. not veri even but doesnt matter. hahas. i'm gonna highlight it anywaes. if not i look damn.. toot?! my hair looks like wig. hahas. but my mum saes i look younger in black hair. hahas. cuz too many freaking people think that i am year 3 this year during the FOC and FOP training!! and i'm UNHAPPY! hahas.

i'm going to stay in school on mondae i tink. hees. to tuesdae. hees. this is to prevent from all the ocs being late.

alright. endz. PEISHANZT. (:

makes new frens during the camp. lols. and i'm supposed to go to school todae. as i'm in my bro's car, on the going to school, i called ivan and he said, no need to go alreeady. cuz. nothing much to do. hahas. and i didnt go. cuz i'm quite shag. so sorry people. but heard from babe that you guys were veri high. hees.

rest at home. and i didnt know that todae's a public holidae!! hahas. until in the morning. i saw so many ppl. and ask my bro and mum,, then they tell me. oh man. i am so.. hais. too busy to keep track of holidaes. I WANNA GO OUT!

i'm going to dye my hair black. then highlight. cuz i look toot in totally black hair. i htink. hees. i wanna do it before school reopens. hees.

alright. just now reali got to learn somethings from glen. thanks glen. hees.

tml going back to school again. hang on peishan! (:

the world is so complicated, so complexed.


my ulcerSSSS hurt. ):

hey hey~! i'm back from the freaking SHAGG camp. 5 daes and 4 nights, i've been sleeping for less than 24 hours in total.

dae one. sat.
organising community preparation camp.
played games that the freshmen would play in camp. some water games are reali disgusting. we had to pass a message across from one end to the other with our mouth full of water, without spilling out. and the guys are trying to make us luff b4 the game even started so that we would burst into luaghter with water splashing out. hahas. i tried to hold on to. i did. then, when the game started, guess wat, i was the first to puke water. hahas. and the gross part comes in. we were trying to communicate with one and other with the water in our mouths. then i was standing around ivan, laurea, and mark. stupid ivan burstinto luaghter, causing laurea to do that too. not forgetting mark. i was not in the conversation and i was totally innocent. the three freaks puke on me. wth?! hahas. my shirt my body was splashed with water + saliva from them. mind you~ the water is warm due to the long time i's being kept in the mouth. lols. disgusting. hees. then was charades and some other games that need actions. they said i screwed up charades. but i'm just doing wat i shud do mahs. lols. and all was like imitating my actions in that few games. hahas. not forgetting the sneaking to bathrooms with heater at the swimming pool. i never climb this kindaf thing before. cuz i'm a guai kia. you know? i dun climb over such things. but the guys are reali nice, they took care of everyone of us. thanks. everything ends like 5am if i'm not wrong.

dae 2. sun.
facilitators/helpers prep camp.
woke up at 8+am to get ready things. i love the facs. they are damn fun ppl to get along with. hees. ivan and i were to prepare nightwalk with them. and because of the lack of time and preparation and the lack of helpers. our nightwalk was a total failurre. quoted from glen. i was sad. seriously. but having the chance to hear guys screaming with feaar in some stations is reali thrilling. hahas. and we know who are the timid guys. hees. cuz they are supposed to walk alone, but they chose to walk with another guy. gays. hahas. everything ends at bout 6am.

dae 3. mon.
freshmen orientation camp.
the freshmen reached at 2pm. so we have quite alot of time to catch some sleep. woke up bout 11+am. prepare prepare and prepare. for the nightwalk all dae long. reali dun have the chance to mix around with the freshies. aniwaes, there are no cute guys. but alot of cute girls. and everybody was saying that this batch is far more better than my batch. so are they hinting that i'm not pretty?! ahhas. i know la. dun have to sae it out ders mahs? hahas. the guys OCs and FACs are like taking their time to 'choose the best' out of those good ones. hahas. i felt that this year's batch of business students are mostly 'eat potatos' (in hokkien) and have this clever aura around them. but they are veri enthusiastic. AND, if i reply fast enuff to isaac's message, i would be eating donuts that were feattured in the last post!! haiya. back to planning the nightwalk, we have alvin from skate club to come and help us. and he got these jumpers that i ahve to wear so that when i'm 'patrolling' the ghost stations, no freshies are supposed to notice me. and i wore it. i look like some angineer. hahas. then came the confusing part to make up for the helpers (ghosts) and locate them. the worst part, they are not veri enthu. so ivan and i were quite pissed off, cuz everybody is not scary enuff. ivan has to teach them how to scare ppl. -.-" speaking the truth, even thou i have walked these scary routes from so many times, i'm still scared. hahas. then the nightwalk starts, ended. screams everywhere. i'm located at the last station and was given the onli time to interact with them. but... they still dunno us well. hahas. nvm. i dun give it a damn lahs. everything went smoothly at first. u until towards the end, groups of eight are walking the nightwalk togetehr. this is too 'not scary' lohs~ lols. but they still scream like wat. then there was this incident that maybe 6 freshies may go missing in the campus, i was freaking worried. kept thinking on wat happened. and blamed myself. but.. end up. everyone was there. false info given. wtf?! but count myself lucky. nothing happens much during the nightwalk. hahas. and it gives me a little more confidence to walk the routes. hahas. i slept at 6+am that dae.

dae 4. tue.
FOC.
the freshies are having loads of fun. playing lotsa games. once again, i woke up at around 9+am. then went to plan the campffire and disco night stuff the whole dae. was reali shagggg.keep myself awake by doing alot of stuff. cuz ivan was like sleeping all dae, he damn shagg. and cant think of anything. hees. so i helped in a little wae. and once again, we have alvin to help us out in the diisco nght. thanks to him. lots lots. hees. was quite blur and clumsy in doing stuff alone. cuz ivan has alot of stuff tto settle. but before that, he already breifed me a little. hahas. that night was oso the buffet night. when eeveryone will wear their best outfit. but i dint. hahas. i just wore a polo and a short pants. hahas. so sad. but never mind lahs. cuz during the dinner time, ivan and i were not there. so nobody sees also. hees. seniors of SB club came down too. saw shuai ge. hees. he wear formal. oh man.. hahas.after dinner, was mmy busiest time. i have do the shim the, campfire thing and the disco night thing. shim was reali funny. i luff till cry sia. qian yi luff till she keeps hitting me. lols. then after the shim, we go settle the disco night. alvin ggrabbed a few helpers to help him. and he reali did a greatjob. cuz everyone enjoyed there. even thou i dun. and dun have the chance to. hahas. i have to excort the campers who didnt wanna stay there to their bunks, quietly, in huge groups and without any noise. cuz sports club was having their night walk. diff to handle. and we reali hoped not to disturb them. but in the end, we did. i slept at 6am and woke up at 10am. Shagged.

dae 5. wed.
FOC.
these few daes have been climbing over fence. but todae i went to bathe alone at the sports complex alone. so qiang right? i not scared. hahas. but went back, packed things. next, i have to carry tables and chairs from level one to level 4. wth? hhas. i cannot make it. was resting in one of the bunks with cui xia. damn bloody shagged. and next, the interesting secret admirer game. hahas. i actualli posted some di siao notes on the board. i found the person who admire me and the person i admire. hahas. i admire one of the helpers, the camara man, benjamin. LOLS. we talked before and hhe's damn funny lahs. lols. and on the dance floor, he rox and i melted. LOLS. no lahs. he tot i'm year three. cuz ii look like one. oh man!! do i look old? he told me this for upteen times already. during the 3 daes 2 nights. due to my eye bags and dull skin. hahas. thanks ah. at first i'm reali pai eh to tell him that i admire him. he was damn shocked lahs. and disappointed. 'why you admire me?!' hahas. sad lehs.. hahas. cuz i've written 2 notes for him. and shengyuan was choosing some to read out loud. he chose the both. hahas. one is veri di siao one, another is quite true. hahas. so when sheng yuan read both out loud, i was damn paisehs. cuz everyone knows i'm the one that i wrote. lols. damn fun experience.

hees. i reached home at 7pm. and slept till 10.30pm then wake up. hahas. damn SHAG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arghs!!!!!!! tml gotta go back to school again. to pack up stuff in clubhouse and for a FOP meeting. wang peishan. better.. hold on tight..! jia you! damn stress and shag. plus i'm going to be sick. wth?!

i need to let go