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first week of schhol just didnt work for me. i no longer haave the kick to study. watever lecturers and tutors said, i dun understand.

everything's getting tougher and i cant adapt to it. maybe it's because it's been a long long while since i last touched my books.

khay mar and i were sitting tgt during one of the many combined lectures with FT students and we realised that watever the lecturer is saying, we dun understand. that's because of one thing, the world has grown, and we hadnt.

this is scary, i cannot imagine myself studying wat i'm studying now. and i cant make any sense out of them. plus, i need to make money out of them for the rest of my life.

how am i going to carry on my life?

so many things happen lately, the good and the bad. i dunno to believe them anot. how i wish i can reali 'dun give a damn' to some things. but it's definitely harder to act than to sae. i cant do it.

anw, i must sae, ytd i went to sb club's guys playing bball. not forgetting melissa and kai yin. i simply just admire them. and the guys were so cool when playing bball. and it was raining. malissa and i realised how weak we are. and i've decided that i need to exercise more often. hees. but wat to do, i still dunno. haha.

khay mar and i realised that we've got no life. cuz last time we used to be so active in everything. and now? so dead. we've gotta inject juice in our lives man. but how? let see then. hees.

i've decided to join sb club. i certainly hope that will inject juice into my life. hees.