Monday, February 25, 2008

01.03.2008
coming saturday
5 more days..
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to MY 19th BIRTHDAY!!!!!

people please get ready ok, im gonna say wat i want here. LOL

1. a hot, tan, fit, tall, cute, cool, rich, understanding, fillial, caring, loving, fun, boyfren (LOL)
2. loads of money
3. a car
4. a plastic surgery
5. an overseas trip
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all right, those are almost impossible..
these are more feasible..

- a hot, tan, fit, tall, cute, cool, rich, understanding, fillial, caring, loving, fun, boyfren (LOL, i still think its possible!)
- lancome hypnosis perfume, or other that smells nice (mine is finishing!!)
- SHOW ON STAGE shirts, caps, anything!
- a gucci, lv, coach, burberry, guess wallet (classic), yes, my wallet is gonna spoil ):
- a dkny, fossil watch
- show's bvlgari necklace
- show's book
- havaianas
- adidas jacket/sweater
- loads of money (most practical)
- bags
- roses or sunflowers
- pretty dresses, tops, bottoms, accessories
- lots of effective eye masks, eye treatment creams
- concealer (my best fren)
- make up
- ____ brand white tea body mist selling at vivo's guardian (i dunno the brand)
- makeover photoshoot that my mum always ask me to, but i dun want. however, it's good to capture your precious moments at 19!
- easy-to-lose fats, body-sculpturing lotion.
- a ride on singapore flyer

these are all the materialistic stuff i want. FOR THE MOMENT.
LOL.

will blog soon(;

Saturday, February 09, 2008

CNY 2008
nothing much to update. just days of my life.


sth to mention about the 2Fs in my life,

i really love and cherish the time spent with my FAMILY.

they are always there, no matter what happened. they will always love me, even though i had never said the words. they use their hearts to feel love between the family members. they did not and will not give up on me when the world did, no matter what i did, good or bad. they always give chances, hoping me to change for the better. forgiving me, so that i know what's wrong and do the right thing. for the sake of improving the whole situation. they will always forgive, even though i had never apologised. they will understand any circumstance. they know how i feel, even though i didnt tell them. they use their hearts to feel how i am feeling. no need to say much or do much. they will not despise, but encourage, no matter how bad i can be. they will not label, cus they truly and really know me, know what kindaf person i am. they do not have ulterior motives when they do something. whatever they do, the root cause of it is that they did for our own good. they dun live for their own, they live for everyone in the family. they are so genuine, i can just lose myself in front of them. i am really me when i'm with them. it is really some thing. cus the world is getting too fake. without them, i'm nothing. literally nothing. yes, everyone will leave someday, but at least you know, when they leave, they are unwilling and their hearts and souls will still be with you. feel it with your heart for goodness sake. is it possible to live only with family.. i wonder. at the end, we are all sharing the same blood.

this is love.


the second, FRIENDS.

i see no point classifying your frens as best, close, good or whatever it is. at the end, they will still leave you, anytime and anywhere. dun be too confident in telling urself the politically correct answer. they leave, and not always being there for you. there are loads of probabilities why they leave. no matter how close how telepathic you are with ur frens, they still need to lead their own lives. you are still alone at the end. they will not stay throughout even if they promised to. and yes, promises are meant to be broken. recall, do your family promises to be there always? they do not need, cus they will be there, guaranteed. no point making an extra effort promising and breaking the promise. love is only counted and realised only after you tell them you loved them. so people started saying for the sake of saying and not meaning it. people started doing meaningless and shallow actions to earn favourism, likability and love. isnt that sad. it's no longer genuine and sincere. take off the masks. wake up people, make use of your own heart and not the words or meaningless actions. the heart is always true. the person can feel even though you didnt express it out in any way. people just dun use their hearts to feel for the other person. friends do despise each other and act like they liked each other in the end. how can they manage to do this. if you have ever thought of lowering ur loved one, its already the first steeping stone to despise people. they might be encouraging you, but they worked doubly hard to be better than you. tell me wat's the point of encouraging, where in the end, you still want to pull him down? whatever they do, are you sure that those for your own good? yes, some. but some people just wanna make you do this so that they can reach their goal in the end. for their own good, not yours, people. despicable, selfish. they live for their own. ask urself, are there frens or even fren who will die in place of you? most will answer no. however, family members can die for you. furthermore, their hearts and souls are with you always, even though they are not physically with you. some people just dun give chances, narrowminded and unforgiving. once you did something wrong, they will label you as a burden and stay away from you, instead of giving you chances to change for the better. even if you changes, they will no longer realise cus they already excluded you in their lives. as if this will improve the whole situation.

the world is getting fake and complicated. all thanks to the animals living in it. and suffer from it from their own wrongdoings.

if you have frens that are just like family, congrats, treasure, cherish and love them with your heart.

*the above is not pinpointing on anyone or due to any occurances. it's just random.




the truth of life is reckless..

Saturday, February 02, 2008

some pics from zouk!!
i know i m dark, they are really WHITE. LOL
shit,big face!!
so pretty!!
i looks so dark here. hahaha.