HAPPY 2010!
in advance. since it might be my last post of the year.


this space had been vacant for quite some time. just when i felt like blogging, it's already the year end. see how time flies.

Whenever it comes to the year end, isn't this the question that keeps hopping around your mind?

It sets people retrospecting into the past and thinking about their future. Some people gets troubled while others get all ready. Some are pessimistic while others are optimistic. Some are strolling every day while others are leaping years in advance. Some are lost while others are clear. Some think of their limitations while others think how to breakthrough their limitations.

Which do you belong to?

I was thrown with the ever-so-weighty question and it was my first time feeling its overpowering effect on my tiny-little-almost-brainless brain. I was stuck and my first reaction was to give the most utilised three-word-answer: I Don't Know. It then sets me pondering, why would I say so? Why didn't I said something or anything other than those three words? Have I not thought about it at all in my past twenty years? Have I wasted my so-called 'life'? Why this and why that. Have I this Have I that. I annoyed everyone in my household with those killer questions. And hell yes, these are the questions flashing through my mind for over 48 hours and I have yet to come out with an answer. These are the questions which are definitely harder than all math or finance questions I've ever did in my life. Shoot me with this question and I'll think algebra or treasury is so easy. Math or Finance.. answers will just appear once I flip the book to the last few pages. But for those questions, its not just simply that.

Guessed the correct question?

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO IN THE FUTUTRE?

That's long term. Thought that it might feel abit better,

WHAT ARE YOUR NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS?

not enough time for you to think through?


That's how I felt. I was burying myself into tons and tons of excuses and was not able to spend, maybe, a day, to think things through. Now, I find myself lost without any purpose in life. All along, I have a few short term goals that I wish to accomplish. Shall keep in suspense some of them since I think I might have the possibilities to fail ;D As for the long term goals, I'll have to really take a few days off to think over it, over and over again.

In the Year 2010, I want to:

1. Solve ____ problem.
2. Improve ___________.
3. Get that dream ___.
4. Save to $____.
5. Have my own ____.
6. Start my own ________.
7. Hop to higher income job.
8. Obtain driving license by June.
9. Learn and understand Mahjong.
10. Travel.
11. To study or not??????

and the list goes on and on.

Its the New Year Eve! What are you planning to do to end this year and to begin next year at the strike of midnight?! Club like last year for me, but am still comtemplating.

Anyway,

Enjoy the New Year and May All the Resolutions Be Done!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

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im in deep shit.

because of my daily bad habits, i spilled out 'f**k' in office. office is damn quiet but with someone sitting opposite me. she definitely had heard it. im doomed. that really wasnt on purpose. i was talking to khaymar on the phone and its natural reaction that you will reply her 'f**k'. that colleague better not tell my boss.

that aunty beside beside me is talking very loudly like the office cubicle is soundproof.

i haven eaten and its 2pm now.

secretary no. 1 went off without telling me. selfish.

i've been nuaing for going to 3 weeks now.

im looking forward to 19/09/09.

i need to meet khaymar and jacqueline soon.

i've always been eating lunch alone. damn. so emo. nvm, its okay. miss independent.

should i go PSA building or vivo? vivo, got excuse to nua longer.

im so bored. fuck it.

Knock You Down

Heh, not again
Ohh, this ain't supposed to happen to me
Keep rockin', and keep knockin'
Whether you Louis Vuitton it up or Reebokin'
You see the hate, that they're servin' on a platterS
o what we gon' have, dessert or disaster?
I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
But I already won first place
I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did(As hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
'Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down
Knocked me down
Sometimes love comes around(Love comes around love comes around)
And it knocks you downJust get back up
When it knocks you down(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down(Knocks you down)
I never thought I'd, hear myself say, ooh, ya'll gon' head
I think I'm gonna kick it wit my girl today, kick it wit my girl today
I used to be commander and chief
Of my pimp ship flyin' high, flyin' high)T
il I met this pretty little missile that shot me out the sky(Oh shot me out the sky)
Hey, now I'm crashing, don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster
Don't you know I would baby if I could
Miss Independent, ohh, to the fullest, the load never too much
She helpin' me pull it
She shot the bullet that ended that lifeI swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight
Girl sometimes love
Sometimes love comes around(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down(Knocks you down)
Tell me now can you make it past your Caspers
So we can finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams that
Seem to only date the head of football teams
And I was the class clown that, always kept you laughin'
We, were never meant to be baby we just happen
So please, don't mess up the trick, hey young world I'm the new slick rick
They say I move too quick, but we can't let the moment pass us
Let the hourglass pass right into ashes
Let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
How could a goddess ask, someone that's only average
For advice, OMG, you listen to that bitch?
Whoa, it's me, baby this is tragic
'Cause we had it, we was magic
I was flyin', now I'm crashin'
This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson
Now I'm mad, real mad, Joe Jackson
You should leave your boyfriend now, I'mma ask him
Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Whoa, whoa, I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
Whoa, whoa, and if it hits better make it worth the fall(When it comes around)
Sometimes love comes around(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down(Knocks you down)
Won't see it coming when it happens, hey
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down
Won't see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down
Yeah

im so tired to do anything after work. even though my work load is quite light, up till now. i guess travelling is tiring.

after my job started, i've began to realise that i should make full use of my 2.5 weekends. 0.5 on friday nights, and 2 on saturdays and sundays. and i also realise that i'm becoming more stupid, blur, unglam (i know i've never been glam before) and clumsy. i lost my company cardkey. twice.

some of the not-yet-forgotten-memories-in-my-limited-brain-space-of-4gb:

- 4 girls, 1 car, lost for 2 hours, looking for ways to go west coast from jurong. we travelled from jurong to lornie rd to raffles institution to clementi to west coast. and in between, we initiated conversations with uncles who then gave us wtf reactions. unforgettably, the whole car jumped upon hitting a big big rock in the middle of the road. we were lucky, we didnt flip.

- song drank 2 super lambo after so much of alcohol and threw up undigested rice, almost immediately.

- fighting scene almost happened for dear friends with a crazy chinese man who kept shouting F%&KKKKKKKKKKKKKK!! and kept hitting against the dj console with retarded boucers came few minutes later, doing nothing, staring.

- met quite a number of second degree friends last night though.

- i ate long john silver's alone in vivo for luch for 1.5 hours.

- i bought a super cute soft toy that can keep my hands warms in its head in the freezing cold office!

- one by one, friends are going into NS. sad.

- my initial, always so near yet so far.

- my meals are all about cup noodles, maggi mee, green tea, milk, cereals, and biscuits.

- i haven forgotten, i will do those.

i think i will fall deeper..

in the meanwhile, enjoy and live life to the fullest! (this's random)

alright. too much to do, say, blog.

life's been repetative, every day.

work, home, tuition, home, sleep. work, home, tuition, home, sleep. work, home, tuition, home, sleep. work, home, tuition, home, sleep. work, home, tuition, home, sleep. work, home, tuition, home, sleep. work, home, tuition, home, sleep. work, home, tuition, home, sleep. work, home, tuition, home, sleep.

yes, my life revolves ard all these. its been turning me and my friends off. i didnt have time to rejuvenate or hang out with friends. what's more, the kids are having exams and parents are going to be as demanding as ever. hello, im also a human. i needa a fff-ing life. and your kids are making me maaaaaaaad every time.

girls, we need to go for some massage/manicure/pedicure/retail therapy some day (even though i had mine not long ago). should reward and pamper ourselves for working so hard, selling our lives out there.

well, ive started working. as the office is in jurong this week, i can sleep longer as compared to working in CBD. im attached to the senior management level which is damn quiet as each has their own room and im in one of them. the view of jurong is actually breath-taking. and i'll say i felt quite priviliged this week as i was able to go to work the latest, knock off the earliest, take the express executive lift, eat in some executive's office, sleep in the toilet and behind my senior someone's back, knowing people from different industries, statutory boards (some are quite big shots), knowing senior officers, directors and i was really impressed by how they did things using their intelligence, IQ&EQ. really wanna take my hat off them. and most importantly, i really really really learned alot from there. they are willing to teach, they are not selfish. just a peek into another industry other than banking. cool shit. seriously. of cus, i dont wanna sound as if im boasting. but i really felt very happy, priviliged and thankful for everyone giving me a chance to learn there. okay, sounds like im gonna give a speech.

just met up with khaymar and jacqueline. had the suckiest dinner along the riverside, nice ambience though. went back home shortly. but was very happy, cus its been long since i met them and talked to them.

now, im home, im feeling sucha loser.. friday night, stay at home, however, its better in a sense that i can rest earlier!

tmr and sunday is a full day of tuition again. they better not make me angry or they will get it from me.

k bye.

im a loser. staying home alone for friday and saturday.

it seems like people are getting lessser and lesser. meeting the few only ones for ed's celebration tmr.

on a temp job now, and after it ends, i'll move on to be a secretary. can you imagine me being a junior secretary?

sometimes, a hug tells us all.

will you be there, always?

"Life Is Not About Finding Yourself, Life Is About CreatingYourself.."

"The Purpose of Life is A Life of a Purpose.."

Current Phase of life: Erratic, Capricious, Frivolous, Imcompetent.

heading nowhere..

just when i thought of you..

long rest coming to an end..

i had a long weekend and i enjoyed even if i stayed at home the whole day, and eating cup noodles for dinner when j was having big big meal :( and stupid man, im waiting for your call now. grrr. must be sleeping. grrr.

wed night i went to zouk with j. realised that the feeling is getting more sick and tired. after all, there's nothing great about clubbing. probably after a long time without clubbing, then the feeling will be fresh, all over again.

thurs night was spent at j's home, having delicious chicken chop, slacking and loot'ing'. got back home with a handful of stuff. thanks aunty (: and of cus dearest j for that surprise. i love it.

labour day was spent at home until xinyi bapo called at 9+pm. xy&kh, j&i, l&xs went over to song's place. we were playing along the expressway, flashing headlights and hazardlights, swaying along the road, cruising and hand signaling.

song's place was hmm.. wow. watched coming soon. was frightened but to look back, it was stupid. jovee joined us. we went for supper at 2+am in pioneer. 5 cars in total. benz, jaguar, toyota, honda, mazda driving behind each other, it damn cool to see all cars signalling right and u turn one by one. had dim sum. nice!

sat was spent back to song's area to my aunt's condo for advance mother's day celebration with my grandmother. good to see relatives again. usual catching up and stuff. nothing new.

sun was finally a day at home! packed up some stuff but still as messy. but nevertheless, i tried (: checked out details about the trip. but, stupid j still haven called me yeeeetttttttt. must be sleeping must be sleeping must be sleeping. angrwy.

anw you had a long day. soccer ikea soccer. it's okay! im understanding! buy me the princessy net for my bed. hehehehe. JUST KIDDING.

i'll be back for work tmr. bored. hopefully no OT please. i wanna go home and rest at 6pm. please please. SALES COME SALES = $$$

im a happy girl today!

lameshit. whatever.

bye!

work's busy. working everyday from 9am to 7.30pm. work's tiring. however, it was all worth the price. we exchanged it with a day off before labour day and vouchers and lunch and dinner to come.

no time to spend with the family.

writing of argumentative essay. i prefer a narrative one.


your comfort zone is like a circle. no point running in it, heading no where. step out of the comfort zone and metamorphose. it will make your life a more light hearted one.

please be prepared for more 'out'dates. im currently quite busy. busy with work and tuition. the rest of the time shall be reserved for family, boyf and friends.

main concerns:

- i'll be having so much lesser time spending with my family & dling. and he's going to ns soon. im afraid.
- its a very and highly stressful job, will i break down? can i cope? will i make mistakes?
- i got no fixed time of going home from my work, how to teach tuition? he's having his exams soon.

TROUBLEd.

for the other dinosaur:

you're being awarded

THE WORLD'S BEST (and the only alive) DINOSAUR.

you always withstand all my nonsense. you always have my interests at heart.

you always call me pretty even though i know im fugly.

you always listen to me.

you never fail to give me surprises cus they made me have sugar rush'es'.

you made me smile and you made me tear cus you mean so much to me.

you always understand and you are always so patient.

you are chocolate, strawberry, honey, sugar, doughnut, and the taste, 'sweetness', that i cannot live without.

empty.

the city of love,
supposedly.

i know it's tiring for you, baby.
im sorry.

yes i know that my blog is collecting dust, im just lazy.

chapter one: hfmd

in case you thought that hfmd is ONLY for kids, then you're wrong. yours sincerely here had been diagnosed with it. i dinno how i got it. but most probably it would be during simin's 'incubation' period when i fed her with my food. sigh. if not, it would be during the IT show when i talked to thousands of people and when their tonnes of saliva showered onto me.

those blisters in my mouth hurted like hell. made me not feel like talking. it feels like bursting ulcers in your mouth. i had a few dots on my hands. and more on my foot.

what was the best part, the doctor didnt say much. this was what happened when i went in.

doc: hi peishan, what's the matter?
me: i had red dots on my hands and foot, and i have ulcers in my mouth.
doc: how long has it been there?
me: i only discovered yesterday. i suspect that it might be hand foot mouth disease.
doc: dont tell me you got hfmd. alright nevermind, you rest a few days, it should be okay. you need mc? holidays? good. can, just take my medicine will do.
me: anything else? like precautions? or creams? or what?
doc: no, nothing. will do.

best doctor. it was in my family clinic. it has two doctors on different shifts of the day. my doctor (who i've been visiting all my 20 years of my life, and i can only recover wth his medicine) is supposed to be on morning shift. i woke up at 10am to visit him specially. but.. nevermind, im not that lucky.


chapter two: IT fair


i was working in the IT fair from 12 to 15 of march. seriously, it was really exhausting. standing on your feet, talking non-stop, smiled until your cheek gonna cramp, interacted with people that you thought you'll never worked with, and handling irritating customers, like close to 12 hours a day really tore me into pieces. but i was glad to see friends working there and friends coming down to find us. they even bought cheeseburger to fill empty stomachs! thank you friends!


chapter three: fun & class chalet

fun with sweets like on the last day of school? i'd forgotten. we went to mj's place to slack and play with hohey and cooked pasta! enjoyable day with them. again!

vending machines selling hairy stuff.


some of the most classic and craziest pics that we'll ever take

attended class chalet and they were celebrating birthday for late feb and march babies. yep, im a march baby!


happy birthdays to.. wan er, yiling, cai shu mei, myself and shu an!

making wishes..

oreo cheesecake! again, incomparable to yours.

after that, we began to play some games. like the open hide and seek and heart attack that got me screaming and high.

'shu an! dont try to escape from the game!'

hmm. not so bad. i managed to hit like 5 times?!

dear classmates, even though we might have our differences, at a blink of eye, it's been 2 years that we've been together. we didnt have much time to interact as a class but i know we can all have fun tgt like what we had in the chalet. i hope that it's not gong to be an one-time event only. see you guys soon!

chapter four: 01 march 2008, 20th birthday.

surprise 1:

the 2 sweeties actually waited like two kukus at my void deck for the time to pass. they saw my family and they were in cahoots with them. when the time is nearing, they came outside of my house and coco, the smartest but yet the most paranoid dog, barked suddenly. i thought it was rather normal. so i wasnt suspicious of anything. everyone else acted normal and dong, the clock struck 12 and my girlies gave me a surprise. love you girls. that's definitely the sweetest thing ive ever received from you all :)

on the actual day itself, met up with the clique to go to mong kok cafe in bugis. specially for the gigantic tehping. i love tehping. but that cup itself got me sick and tired of tehping for days. it was so huge that i couldnt even lift it up like in the champion's league.

gigiantic right?!

the couple who's always so happy

look out for her in the bio-essence ad

the girl who is enjoying her life in US now

and hockyong who didnt have his own shot there.

the amount of ice we took out from tehping. but, it was still very sweet. so guess how much condensed milk there is in the tehping?

surprise 2:

after dinner, the bunch of monkeys kidnapped me from bugis to redhill. and i had got no idea where they were bringing me to. and there, it's here. saw someone who ignored me for three days.

my first macdonald's birthday celebration!

the kids.

this kid here was mischievious. arranged all these behind my back. even so, i love her. cus without her, i wouldnt enjoy my birthday so much. no, im not crooked.

we were playing the passing game!

the kids 2

xinyi was the first to get forfeited!

forfeit: dance to 'low' like how we did it in spsb graduation!

nope, im not dancing with you!

low low low low low low low low

swen was second!

forfeit: use the stickers given free by macdonald's to pluck his leg hair!

ouch!

i was third to be forfeited.

forfeit: sniff swensen's smelly socks!

it was suffocating.

ah min was the next!

forfeit: turn onthe spot, head down, 10 rounds and pose like how she did for bio-essence!

pose!

the last round was definitely my turn by sabotage!

forfeit: go up to two starngers and ask them to sing birthday to you!

spastic!

much love to you. and i thank my darlings to spend this day with me. even though there were not alot of people who were there, the happiness was more than enough for me! love you all!

love you all. thank you.

he, who dont touch housework, baked an oreo cheesecake for me! it wasnt fantastic, but it was the most fantastic one for me!

oh my goodness, look at the number of stickers i had on my top. they did it. unglamness.

this was a must-take photograph requested by them. shyness!

it was prize presentation time! received gifts from darlings and mac's.

gift from mac's that apparently becomes coco's toy now :(

hockyong, i know you love my name. and that's my flowers, mind you.

hats/caps from underground brand that you might not know.

yea, the next WWE champions.

ketchup or curry sauce, brother?

group photo!

more than words, really.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

OMG. MY DEARIES JUST CAME AND CELEBRATED MY BDAY AT THE STRIKE OF 12 TOGETHER WITH MY FAMILY! IT WAS REALLY A SURPRISE AND I WAS REALLY TOUCHED. IM BLESSED WITH THE SWEETNESS AND LOVE OF MY TWO FAMILY-LIKE SISTERS,

SHIRLYN ONG ZHI YI

YEO SI MIN

LOVE YOU BOTH!!

not bad. i like. totally reflects how irritating am i.

coco, my happy pill :)

was quite free to upload some pics that i long wanted to.

in west coast plaza's coffee bean

next up, vday.

in front of suburban

went to underwater world! its been a long time since i went there.

beautiful marine animals

in the car

heart pasta

yep, so anyway there was a triple date with swen, lyn, kok and xinyi @ sizzler. followed by marina barrage and nydc in holland v.

guess what are these?!

these were the end results of ho kokhow and lim xinyi's pinches. before they were together. hehehe. i met them after mj's place and before zouk.

went over to mj's place before zouk. on a certain friday afternoon after school. hohey's such a cutie! so little! so furry! so nua! so black!

hohey!

xinyi

shu an

i think i somehow lost jaslyn's picture. sorry!

cant see his eyes right? hahaha.

false pretense.

and wtf, tmr's my birthday, i ought to be happy.
or maybe i can try being out of the tradition.

bye.