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hais. guessed i've never felt this wae before.

wat can i sae? you are/it is no longer the same. people change like the blink of our eyes. i think it is quite clear. but it seems that you wanna run awae. or you want me to run awae from you? all i can do is to fake a smile a laugh everydae of my life. and pretend that nothing happens. cuz i dun wanna lose you. i have to carry on with my life no matter wat. i told myself not to affected, but i cant do it. easier to be said than done. it's so hard to understand you. hais..
i'm totally defeated.
shud i,shud i not?