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tmr's my mst and im still procrastinating. i have no sense of urgency. i dun have the studying mood. im really gonna screw up. just pray that i wun fail any modules. a pass will do. i dun expect much.

thanks for people whom i regard as friends who are looking down at me, discouraging me, and mocking at me. you dont have to worry that i might compete with you. cus im nobody, nothing. even if im something, im only a small fry that will not have any effect on anyone of you. the world is competitive and i know that you all know that you're better. dont have to deny it. i seriously hate competition to the core. it affects friendship. i know this is singapore afterall. but is there really a need to compete this strong? everyone is trying to outshine each other. killing each other. arent you all tired? there's no more genuine frenship, will there? i can stop dreaming. dun worry, i wont do better than you all. go ahead and celebrate.

friends. what are they?

at this point of time, im being held back. is it only me? i have a feeling. it's gonna fall apart. there's no longer substance, it's only the form. why do i feel that they are not there? other's are not like this. but why are mine like this? why. i cant figure out seriously. or in the first place. there isnt any. im suspecting the friendship we all have here. i pray, please dont let anything happen. i love them as they are. i miss the time we all had together. why is it all gone now? its no longer the same anymore.

reassure me that there's genuine friendship.
tell me that i wont be alone. sorry i know its irritating. but im not feeling secure.
maybe it's just me?

i realise, i dun say 'im happy'.






















ok. enuff of the emoshit.

things i have to do after thurs.

- meet ups!
- sentosa!
- shopping!
- clubbing!
- drinking!
- &&&many many more!

people, please spare some time to accompany me celebrate!