Thursday, May 01, 2008

30.04.2008 - 01.05.2008

you suddenly appeared.
i was totally unprepared. i was very ugly.
i didnt dare to go forward. im afraid you'd act as if you dunno this ugly girl.
all i could do was to hide at a corner.
peeped you from a corner.
so near yet so far. what a waste!
circumstances did not allow us to meet at first.
was dejected. i thought i really had no chance to see you again.
tried my luck. and i was lucky enough. crazy all over you.
stop and stare. a few times.
i did not know what you were thinking. did you really stop and stare at me? or my frens who are prettier?
i took up courage. took the initiative.
i'd risked. and you'd surprised me. i was afraid that you might ignore me. but i tell myself that may be the last chance.
i thought you would forget. i was afraid that you might forget me or think im just another girl trying to talk to you.
but you didnt. you know my name. you still rmb me (:
overjoyed.
you caught me when i fall.
we'd shared a stupid conversation. to me, it's not at all. so nice talking to you.
you're always this nice. you're really very nice.
you looked me in the eyes.
you even came forward unexpectedly. at my ugliest moment. and still talked to me.
you'd made fun of me. but i love it. somehow it makes me feel comfortable with you.
you told me you're leaving. ard 2am. i wished i could make you stay, but i know im incapable of that.
that moment, that unforgettable moment. i was shocked and more than elated.
i just hope that time could stop at that moment. i cherished that few seconds. really.
not even in my dreams i dreamt of that. i could be so close to you.
it wasnt ordinary. you held me so tightly (:
you definitely know how to make a girl happy. its been a long time since im so happy.
even for a split second. i love you.

If the heart is always searching, Can you ever find a home? I've been looking for that someone, I'll never make it on my own. Dreams can't take the place of loving you, There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.
When you look me in the eyes, And tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, When you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven. I find my paradise, When you look me in the eyes.
How long will I be waiting, To be with you again? Gonna tell you that I love you, In the best way that I can. I can't take a day without you here, You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.
When you look me in the eyes, And tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, When you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven. I find my paradise, When you look me in the eyes.
Moving on, I start to realize, I can reach my tomorrow, I can hold my head up high, And it's all because you're by my side.
When you look me in the eyes, And tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, When you're right here by my side. When I hold you in my arms, I know that it's forever. I just gonna let you know, i never wont let you go. When you look me in the eyes. And tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, When you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven. I find my paradise, When you look me in the eyes.

when will i see him again? not anymore?
i dont want that to be the sweetest, and, last goodbye. i will nover forget.

i know its nothing to him.
it's just purely frenship.
but it means alot to me. im just too over him.