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happy birthday to choon ngee!!! 18th birthday, you happy can already la!!

later meeting them to barnacles or vivo to eat. after that pub/club.

i want to talk to you. but i dunno wat to talk about and what to start with. you came to talk, i was shocked, happy and overjoyed. i tot and hope that everything will turn out fine or better. best as it can be, i hope everything can start all over again. but it seems not to. it's not the same anymore. we used to talk everything under the sun happily and enjoy each other's pressence. i dunno why, why cant we talk like we used to? is it because i know you too much? or your expiry period for each girl is no longer than two months? we are like having a war everytime we talk now. i detest this feeling. i'm no longer sure wat are we. we are close frens, best frens, frens, acquaintances, or worse, strangers. i always treat you differently like never before. you were once so impt in my life, now still. how did you treat me? have you tot of this question? dun make use of me, that will make me hate you. i dun like this feeling. or is this the end of everything? can i say i dun want to have this ending? do i have a choice, you tell me. you came and went, came back and went. many times. wat do you expect me to do? there are times when i really wanna tell you how i feel towards you. cuz i really wanna know how you feel. but you are just doing wat you usually do, enjoying it, and all i can do is to shut up and get outta of ur life to prevent me from disrupting. why am i so stupid and stuck right here? i've been shutting up and hiding in some corner and see wat you do for so many months already. many times i gave up, but you came back and once again, i fell. why do i land myself in this deep shit. the year is passing, am i going to bring this forward to the next year?

it's broken. it broke accidentally. not on purpose. it fell on the floor and broke into pieces. but the main thing is still there. does this resemble something? it's broken afterall right? i dunno if you still keep the thing. but when i saw it the other time, which was months ago, when things were real fine, i'm more than happy. now... i wish i can stop thinking about it. i'm sorry, but i think i love you.
mylove;onemissingpiece