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unknowingly..i've become more anti social. is it because that i'm lack of confidence? when and why have i became lack of confidence? or does not know how to communicate with others? i may look veri happy on the outside. i feel veri empty inside. i felt that i'm no longer needed and my existence doesnt make a difference. i have became more sensitive. i am so alone. felt so unwanted. i cannot be a good fren to others and doesnt reali have a fren that i can telleverything like before. anymore. is it because that the evt in poly is much more diff? seems like sec 1 and 2 days are coming back.. to me, i tthink family is much more important and it's the onli place that i can depend totally on.

MST week is shit. i had beeen working. i'm not going tto do well this sem. it's shit. not onli the timetable is rubbish, the modules are rubbish too. the teachers are too. after tests and tests, are projects and projects. poly life is not slack at all. hmmm. when is hoilidae coming?? one month. so long. i know that i'm not going to do as well.