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since i've last updated, alot of things happened.

when i'm stressed, i'll be angry. with myself. i'll cry after that. it's not the first time. maybe it's better for me to cry out loud. i can do that anywhere, anytime. yes, i burst out easily. i know i can be fake. faking a smile when i dun feel good. that is when i still can take it. on the verge of breaking down, i wun even talk. i reali cant take it. i cant breathe. having so many things up on my shoulder, i cant take it. i have many things in my mind to do, they are not wants, they are needs. but i just cannot foke out the time to do it. even if it's a want, is it wrong to relax myself? cant i have my own personal life? why shall i restrict my life with all these? i cant even do the things that i like? it's not that i wun do the things i have to do, but dun expect me to do things like how you all did. this is not specifically for anyone.
please dun treat me like nothing. even if you do, dun let me feel it. dun use me. i dislike it. dun treat me good onli when you need my help. thanks.