thanks xinyi darling, for yesterday. thanks ** for coming down when i miss you.

today's not a day for me.

last midnight was sucky. i dun like the feeling. can you not let me feel this way. im sorry. im paranoid.

today's first thing: bd presentation. sucks totally. fish you %^&*#$%! after that was investment test. practically i wasnt in the mood for anything since last night. so yeah, i expect that my grades will be awesome.

thanks all who is willing to listen my crap. if you managed to see me today, you would see a super cui zombie walking around, with no facial expressions. after sch went to have ice cream with xy darling. thanks darling.

after which, i dragged myself for tuition, which takes forever to receive the first pathetic 50% payment. my mood was off alre and i know he better not piss me off today. but bingo, i was almost horrored to death just now. my tutee, a pri 4 kid, doesnt know what's 'smooth' and 'rough'. i literally let him touch whatever i can dig from my bag to let him feel the diff. tell me how should i teach him?! argh. people who knows me well knows that i dun like kids and have limited patience. argh.

i am waiting by my phone and i found myself waiting for your call, your sms. i am very affected, i admit. i know you should know how i feel. shouldnt you let me know how're yours too? i used to receive your message with a smile, but why am i crying now? im sure you're not aware that im even sad. i wonder just where you are, what you are thinking. im sorry im paranoid. but dun leave me just like that. at least, tell me sth.. i dun like this feeling.. do sth please.

thanks boy
i had a great day! hope you enjoy the day too!
next time?
hehehhehe.
dun expect.

can i say that you're selfish? i think i can.
but nvm. its ok.
he always says 'it's all cool.'

haven even touched banking law project. dead. mrs tan, or whoever who told mrs tan about my blog, please tell her that banking law deadline is too rush. thanks (:

13 more hours to go.
if you know what i mean.
hehehehe.

i dun expect much. but i just hope everything will just turn out alright (:

when im with you, i'll make every second count, cus i miss you, whenever you're not around.

- gems presentation
- watched the dark knight with ba po xy and it was definitely a nice show!

ps: it's a friday night, and im right here, at home. not in the club (:

yilaine. definitely, mayb says:
cause the best dont come easy ?

thanks for those people who actually bothered to talk to me online. xy, sean, n, yilaine, dom, km, sw. i might not be close to some of them. but at least they bothered. appreciated.

tell me what shud i do now?

i dunno what's got into me these few days. i even neglected my family. just dun feel like talking to them. is it projects? or is it you? i dun feel like doing anything.

projects projects projects. never ending projects. how am i supposed to survive for another 6 more months? i wonder how people actually graduate.

in a nutshell :
- i've passed my ftt
- f1 is employing me
- im a tuition teacher
- ive been labelled as a 'clubber' but im totally not
- i have 3 projects to hand by this weekend
- napfa's got a bronze, not a fail grade and im contented
- im thinking of you

update soon.

right here right now. nth to do. refuse to do anything related to projects. its too freaking scary. business development, craa, goal setting, investment, banking law (coming up). i need a a break. all projects at the same deadline. yea, sure i'll be dead then.

anw. napfa just now. sucks. totally. except that i get to see him (: so cute! but stress la. i think i managed to pass every station right. hahaha. just passed. i wanna smack ivan man. dunno how to help. then keep paisehing me infront of so many ehem. no la. jkjk. anw the girls (jac, angela, yiling, tricia, doreen, me) were so bimbotic la. no more image. he better not mind. jkjk. we were like having those 'just pass' attitude. and were super noisy until the testers cant take it and laughed at us several times. but they were super nice! really super nice!

precisely, i cant stetch for sit and reach, i cant jump for standing broad jump, i cant run for 2.4km, i cant pull my heavy body up for incline. see believe me now? my frens were saying that i looked like a track adn field girl. MISCONCEPTION!

anw kokhow came and 'support' me. thanks huh. i know you have a heart. appreciated!

anw came back home and straight away slept for a short while. i bathed in school!!! its clean!! woke up and bathed again!! once again, im clean!!! ate supper and online :)

i dont know how you feel. is it normal for you?