unknowingly..i've become more anti social. is it because that i'm lack of confidence? when and why have i became lack of confidence? or does not know how to communicate with others? i may look veri happy on the outside. i feel veri empty inside. i felt that i'm no longer needed and my existence doesnt make a difference. i have became more sensitive. i am so alone. felt so unwanted. i cannot be a good fren to others and doesnt reali have a fren that i can telleverything like before. anymore. is it because that the evt in poly is much more diff? seems like sec 1 and 2 days are coming back.. to me, i tthink family is much more important and it's the onli place that i can depend totally on.

MST week is shit. i had beeen working. i'm not going tto do well this sem. it's shit. not onli the timetable is rubbish, the modules are rubbish too. the teachers are too. after tests and tests, are projects and projects. poly life is not slack at all. hmmm. when is hoilidae coming?? one month. so long. i know that i'm not going to do as well.

hahas. it's been a long time since i've updated my blog. lols. okies. let's talk bout what has happened recently.

Saturdae.
SHIRLYN'S BDAE CELEBRATION @ SENTOSA!!!
yeahs! hees. i've been wanting togo sentosa for a long long time. i'm far too fair until i cant tahan myself. at first there were like approximately 15 ppl going. but end up.. onli 10-11 ppl came. ahhas. met at boon lay control and there were onli ed,cn,swen,lyn and me onli. then met up with kexin and weixiang at jurong east. followed by zhaorong at outram park. then headed for sentosa, siloso beach. the first one to be wet was none other than SHIRLYN. hahas. onli kexin and weixiang were not wet. hahas. played vollyball. i reali cant play vollyball. lols. play play play. then wanted to wait for alfred to come. and we planned that after he went into the water, we'll go wash up. hahas. but we drag and drag time. so.. TRAGEDY happened. so scary. better dun talk bout it liaos. after washing up, went to vivo city and sat at the roof, talked. hahas. ed and zr went home. then we decided to go clark quay to meet simin and david. swen said there was a sale, selling nike, fcuk... other branded stuff @ lower prices. and it was located at a freaky place. where possibly nobody at our age will know where that is. we walked from clark quay to raffles place then to city hall. so tiring. then went there. there was nothing to buy. went to lau pa sat eat then. it's not a veri nice place. the vendors there are basically snatching businesses, openly. not a veri good experience. never mind. hees.

Mondae.
HAPPY BURFDAE TO SHIRLYN ONG!!
HAPPY BDAE TO YOU, HAPPY BBDAE TO YOU, HAPPY BDAE TO SHIRLYN, HAPPY BDAE TO YOU..!!

went to jp with mummy onli lohs. hees. then manage to find a job at jp. hees.

Tues.
usual. went to school and stuff.

Wed.
HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO WEILOONG!!!
ZHU NI SHENG RI KUAI LE, ZHU NI SHENG RI KUAI LE, ZHU NI SHENG RI KUAI LE, WEILOONG, ZHU NI SHENG RI KUAI LE..!!!

ended school at 1pm. so headed to somerset. took train with tricia and yiling. yiling is reali funny. when we were at buona vista mrt station, these was this bird which was 'resting' at the railway track. then she said, "wahs.. wouldnt this bird be smashed by the train when it draws near?" diaos~
went to my dental appt and change my braces' colour to light purple? i like this colour. hees. my teeth are cooperating. hees. one mth later going back to that place agian. hees. went home after that, saw anne on train. wat a coincidence. hees.
that night, met up with jun xian, xueyan and ruixing at boon lay bus interchange. was veri late. ahhas. took a cab down to halo bar. for ruixing and weiloong's bdae celebration. hahas. reached and saw his bro, weijian and jessica, weiloong, weeboon, zhenming, camen. hees. sat ard and talked lohs. lols. sing a little bit songs. hees. drank martel, martel and martel. with green tea lahs. of cuz. lols. hahas. then kokheng, edwin reached. begin to play some mind games. and when everyone knows the ans, i still dunno!!! HMPH!!! play cheat lahs you all. ;P while playing, weiloong's the other bunch of frens came lohs. hees. he has alot of frens. hahas. he's too good liaos. hees. 11+.. cut cake lohs. hahas. his frens sabotage him. and spread cake all over his face. hahas. wanna go home ders shi hou, ke lian ders camen and edwin were puking. hees. smelly. lols. quite fun. i felt kinda uncomfortable. and that kok heng was there keep saying i'm drunk. i'm not!! hahas. just tired nia. lols. and becuz i have a lesson at 8 the next dae, i gotta go early.

Thursdae.
i pon my lesson at 8. hahas. went to school at 1pm. they said i looked like i'm drunk. hahas. i'm not!! hees. afetr the 4 lectures in a row, i went to jp, had dinner with mummy and got ready for work. hees. i'm working in jp. at B!, in front of osim ders push cart. hees. selling clothes and bags. hees. free come find me ar!!! ahhas. but i'm not working everydae. hahas. some of the daes onli. went there and got to know a girl.. hees. she looks older than me, but she's younger than me!! hahas. anywaes, was quite nervous when i sell some things. lols. made mistakes. hees.

Fridae.
after school, there was talentime 06/07. was there cuz my classmate got into finals. hees. it's suppose to start at 5.30pm. but delay till 6++ then start. wait so long. hees. hmm. i saw the shuai ge. hees. he's so handsome. he looks like a price. hahas. but he's not in the finals, cant hear him sing. but he's helping out there. he's not veri tall. but i'm short. hahas. crazy me. it was break and guess wat, he's just in front of my seat.. omg.. i was so paisehs can? lols. so near yet so far. if i can know him jiu hao.. hahas. hees. jacqueline's handsome guy got into the finals. ahhas. she's crazy over him. hahas. but we did not stay for the band section. hahhahs. cuz too late liaos. lols. then went home.

Todae.
stayed at home and watched goong on you tube. omg. shin goon is so cool. hugging him is so comfortable. lols. i think too much liaos. lols. my mum is going to buy me goong dvd. hahas. yeahs. love her so much!! alright.. tml going to work from 3.30 to 10pm. long dae. hees. simin saes she wanna find me!! yeahs!! ahahs. welcome welcome!! hees.

hmm. nothing much happens in life like mine. hees. but it's okies. simple life for me. hahas. actuali, i'mlazy to blog the week's happenings lahs. hees. anywaes, i am reali hooked by 'princess hour'!!!! mon to fri 7 pm, i will 'park' myself infront of the tv and watch it. omg. the princess is too cute!! hees. i am mesmerised by the crown prince, shin. arghs. a lot of ppl like the 2nd crown prince. i like him as well. cuz he's the typical type of guys any girl would fall in love with. but crown prince is so coool. he's that kind of guy that will unknowingly catch your attention. he's dunno how to xpress himself. he's 'kou ying xin luan' ders guy. ooohh. so mi ren. hahas. i like the 2nd crown prince at first, but i unknowingly fall in love with the crown prince. hees.

i dreamt about me being pregnant ytd. i didnt know that i was pregnant, until my tummy become more bloated up as time passes by. i did not dream bout the father of the baby. why not??!!! lols. hahas. i dun dare to shit and told my mum that i'm afraid that i will shit the baby out. lols. then i delivered the baby in great pain. hahas. i woke up because of that. lols. wat a stupid dream.

i tot my life was rather boring. i need to spice up my life!!! :DD but how?! hmm. let nature takes its course. :)

hmmm. MUCH has happened this week. so MANY projects. PROJECTS PROJECTS PROJECTS PROJECTS. hahas.

todae went for yoga class. hees. saw swen, ed, and cn playing soccer. i screamed and wavedd at them like a crazy girl. ahhas. i reali have lost my image iin sec school, as well as poly. hahas. no wonder still single. now i know why. lols. jkjk. no boyfren, no problem. understand? lols. that's how i console myself. lols. jkjk. went to toilet and get changed. the toilet sucks. reali. anw, was late lahs. lols. faster lie down on the mat that i bought and started doing all sorts of postures. i feel that it's veri effective if you have a bad posture. heees. was quite funny lohs. anne was beside me and she was treated like a popiah. hahas. roll here and there, in high speed, by the teacher. lols. so funny. hees. do some relaxation exercise. reali feel like sleeping while relaxing. hees. anywaes, i think it's good lahs. reali released and relaxed after that.

went home lohs. so sians. hahas.

went to meet khatijah for character development project. we decided to go to the mac at marina square for the project. i got myself a double chocolate from mcCafe. nice! hees. then alex and khay mar reached. started doing the project. and chatting bout life experiences of khay mar, how man thinks bout girls and vice versa. hahas. so lame. lols. work on our project till 6pm.

the girls shop shop shop @ marina square. got cheap stuff from there! hees. got a pair of skull earring from diva @ 2 bucks. then got 2 tops, for $4.90 and $6.90 and one shorts $9.90. the shop sells cheap dresses. 9.90 bucks each. khay mar bought a few. hees. after that went to the foodcourt there and eat. omg.. the view was.. terrific! we can see esplanade just a road awae. fullerton hotel bla bla bla. hees. the scenery is veri nice. hees. began recording videos of khay mar's stupid actions. hahas. so funny. dropped by NUM. the last stop before heading home. hees. one shop is of cute guys, another one is of hot guys. hahas. so bian tai hor, us. hahas. our class is like that ders lohs. so crazy. lols. good!!

they are my strength and my light! they are so real, not vouge, fake and cunning. our frenship, hardly anyone could break. althou we have diff personalities, but we hang out well, veri well. we can talk about anything and everything under the sun. pulling each other out of the pit. after meeting them, my life has been diff. we understand and care for each other. we know each other's strengths and weaknesses. we can do stupid things in front of each other. we can tease each other without getting angry. there are almost no borders between us. we enjoy and cherish the time we have together as there are not many chances. most imptly, we share the common memories that canot b replaced by anyone..
you all will alwaes be on my mind. never to be forgotten. ever. i'm lucky to meet you guys. love..

went out with my bunch of bros and sis. the above is the feeling of me to you guys. this kinda thing is difficult to be expressed. we are all asians. hahas.i just love you all lahs.

meeting @ 10am. iknew no one is going to reach on the dot. so.. i was enjoying mum's pancakes. reached bout 10.20am?! i dunno. when i was there, there were onli simin, edmund, hockyong. then came kexin, weixiang, kenny. todae's gathering is for xuansheng's brithdae celebration. the lead actor and his shirlyn were veri late. for more than 1 hour?! after waiting for such a long time, we decided to go and eat mac. the six of us were staring at simin eating her hotcakes. then the leads are finally here. hahas. took such a long time. boarded a train and headed to cineleisure. we realised that every birthdae that we celebrated, was at cineleisure. hees. zhaorong then met us at buona vista.

we occupied the whole row of the seats. bought tickets for rob-b-hood. 9.50 bucks. so exp. anw, it's the moments that we share. choon ngee then met us. poor choon ngee, they alwaes bully him. hahas. watchedrob-b-hood. it's reali worthwhile. it's fascinating, humorous and touching. i was like luffing like mad this time and crying uncontrollably another time. it's veri nice. after watching the movie, pooled. saw weiloong, zhen ming and jun xian. wat an coincidence! hees. so long never see them liaos. weiloong is kinda cool lahs. hahas. they actuali sae that even if when weiloong was wishing xuansheng a happy birthdae, he looked fierce. hahas. he's like this. actuali he's veri nice. a supernice man. hahas.

after pooling, saw the haze. it's like so serious can? we tot that it's raining. but it's not. it's the haze that look so alike as the rain. so we went to have our dinner at this sakura buffet. wahs. it's damn nice lahs. onli 28 bucks for an international buffet. everything is there. you name it, tthey have it. i think, among the girls, i ate the most. hahas. zr, kx, lyn, sm then me. all of us K.O respectively. hahas. and i must mention, the most exp birthdae celebration is xuansheng's. hahas. $308 bucks!! but worthwhile, we've eaten shark's fin, herbal chicken/duck, drunkken prawns, sashimi, sushi, oysters, scallops, dim sum, cakes, ice creams, fried rice, abalone blah blah blah. veri full.. went to heeren and walked ard. flesh imp is having sales. but i didnt see anything that caught my attention. hees. anw, stayed at heeren and recall our memories. hahas. so fun. so sweet. hees. then off we went back home. one by one, we left. reali hope we can catch up in another gathering soon. will miss you all!

was veri boring. sometimes i just feel that my existence does not matter anymore.

anywaes.. i was so boring that i did some personality tests online. hahas. here's the results.


THE REAL ME.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward (i dun think ppl like straight forward ppl. unless you are veri close with them). You are an efficient problem solver (not to te extent of effeicient, but i enjoy solving problems. hahas.) because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style (but it would be perfect if he's good looking too). This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes (dun think so, if yes, then i'll be attached. hahas).

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (if onli i have that mentality. hahas. i'm a person who doesnt like to study, veri much, true.)

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income (yes, if not i'll not study banking and financial svcs.). Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working (of cuz, who would choose working over love? -.-").

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence (no!). You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean (veri true). You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


MY DREAM GUY???!!
(not veri true lahs)
He is wild and adventurous. His path is often against the world (-.-"). He does what he wants when he feels like (hey! that's my personality! hahas). His type of girl is quite like him, independent and wise. If you love freedom and willing to risk (i'm quite timid. hahas), go for this guy.


hahas. quite fun lahs. lols. you guys can try out too! hees. boring ppl do lame things.